rivendellrose: (*snerk*)
Just watched the first episode of The Expanse.

So, friends, tell me: does this get better? Because my was that pilot episode kind of poorly-written and generally uninteresting.

2017 goals

Jan. 2nd, 2017 08:59 pm
rivendellrose: (dance)
My goals for 2017, in no particular order:

- Be more positive and grateful for what I have in my life, even when I'm sad for some reason (or no reason).
- Go to the gym (or do commensurate physical activity like hike, etc.) 3 times a week.
- Write at least 750 words a day.
- Write on original work 4 days a week. (3 days are allowed to be fanfic. Or more if I also write at least 750 words on one of the original works.)
- Hit my freelance income goal for the year (it's low, but it's my first full year full-time).
- Post to my blog at least once a month.
- Spend less time looking at social media (Tumblr, Twitter, FB) and more time doing useful things like practicing guitar, working on my calligraphy, drawing, writing, etc.
- Practice the guitar at least 5 days a week.
- Write down all the books I read in the year.

That last one is important to me because I get almost all my books out of the library, now, especially fiction... and I already have a tendency to forget most of what I read a few weeks after I've finished it. I think this is a tendency honed as an English major in college--it was only beneficial for me to remember the millions of books that I read for English, history, anthropology, classics, and assorted other similar classes for 10 weeks at the absolute most, and I read so damned many that it benefited me if my brain just dumped the info after being tested on them. ...Or it could just be that I'm a quick but not a very deep reader. Pick your poison. I can read a lot of books... but if you ask me the last ten books I read I'll probably get through three or four tops before going "Uhh.... and a bunch of other stuff?"

Then again, if you ask me what the last three movies I saw were I'll probably only get to two before kind of blanking, so maybe I just have the memory of a goldfish. Who knows. I'm not especially concerned either way. It is what it is, and it means I can reread books (and rewatch movies) quite happily if I like them.
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Stolen from [personal profile] selenak, the End of Year Fannish Meme!

1. Your main fandom of the year? Old Star Trek: DS9 and ENT. I had a huge personal loss and massive life-change this year, as well as some resulting depression, and the combination sent me scrambling for comfort in the form of both the familiar and long-beloved (DS9) and the familiar-but-slightly-new (ENT).

2. Your favourite film watched this year? I'm terrible at picking only one favorite, so instead I'll list a few: Arrival, Moana, and Hail, Caesar! come to the top of my mind.

3. Your favourite book read this year? Again, terrible at picking only one, but I developed a passion for Georgette Heyer this year, and probably my favorite of her books is either Arabella or Frederica.

4. Your favourite TV show of the year? I'm going to go with "favorite new to this year," so that would be the short-lived but marvelously underrated BrainDead. Seriously, check this out if you missed it, it's hilarious, has a marvelous cast, and is perfectly delightful.

5. Your favourite online fandom community of the year? Meh, I have honestly not been that terribly involved in online fandom this year, apart from individually with a few friends. Mostly I love that there are still fans of the old stuff floating around putting up occasional new things.

6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year? Uh... The Force Awakens taught me that sometimes I really like Star Wars?

7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year? Uhhhhhhhhhh... does the ENT finale count? Because wow, that was a piece of shit. I was prepared, and I was still horrified.

8. Your TV boyfriend of the year? 2016 shall go down in my fandom history as the year that I coped with my messed up life by falling head over heels for Commander Shran, and Jeffrey Combs in general.

9. Your TV girlfriend of the year? Hmm, let's say Mary Elizabeth Winstead, because I loved her character in BrainDead and was thrilled to see her doing something better than Scott Pilgrim.

10. Your biggest squee moment of the year? Seeing "A Midsummer Night's Dream" at the Globe Theater in London, and then watching the same production several months later when its final performance was streamed by the BBC. That was fucking fantastic.

11. The most missed of your old fandoms? The most missed would probably be Babylon 5, which I've been somewhat restraining myself from (just the thought of the DVD menus is enough to keep me from pulling them out, even though I'd love to rewatch some of my favorite episodes, and I'm a little afraid of falling face-first back into all that madness) and whose online camaraderie I really missed from the old days of LJ.

12. The fandom you haven’t tried yet, but want to? Hmm, dunno. We've been trying Leverage, but it's not really clicking yet? I know, that doesn't totally count. Uhhhh... I might watch Rogue One once it's on Apple TV? I'm afraid it'll be too Saving Private Ryan for me.

13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year? American Gods and Star Trek: Discovery. I suspect the former will surpass my usual levels of accepted violence/gore and the latter will disappoint me in some way, but I am still ridiculously excited for both and will do my best to stick them out regardless. Also looking forward to the as-yet-untitled (as far as I know) spin-off from The Good Wife, because damn but I miss that show. Oh, and Mass Effect: Andromeda. Man am I excited for that game.
rivendellrose: (Scully)
So, after seeing yet another of those "Hey, we're tired of Tumblr fandom's shit" and a lot of people commenting with basically "I would love to go back to Dreamwidth/LJ but it doesn't seem to be active," I decided, well, hell, if that many of us feel that way maybe we should just flipping try to post here again. Because hell yeah, I'm sick of a medium that doesn't allow the kind of conversation that made me interested in fandom to begin with.

So anyway, this is me, putting myself out there to say hey, I'm still here! I would totally still be here all the time if other folks were still here, too!

As far as fandom stuff goes, I'm mostly just waiting with bated breath for Star Trek: Discovery. Will it almost certainly disappoint me? Yeah, now that Bryan Fuller isn't leading it anymore I'm resigned to the fact that after the first few episodes the amazingness may taper off and I might not actually like it, and also it is going to be a giant return to the usual Klingon obsession, which is sad. But freaking Doug Jones is playing an alien regular, Michelle Yeoh is playing a Starfleet captain, and Sonequa Martin-Green is the lead character. I can't miss the possibilities represented there, even if they wind up not being quite everything I'm hoping for.

Also, Moana and Arrival were both fabulous movies. And [personal profile] hearts_blood is currently doing a fantastic job of dragging me back into our old Minbari headcanon universe. She also got me the Crimson Peak artbook for Christmas and it is flipping gorgeous.

How's everybody else doing out there?
rivendellrose: (To be or...)
Dear Santa Bryan Fuller:

I've been a very good girl and I have been a loyal viewer of your shows (we can talk later about my reasons for only having actually seen a few episodes of Hannibal, but suffice to say I was a devoted fan of the show anyway, and did everything I could to support the social media campaigns and whatnot to save it), and I can't wait for American Gods, but I have a few requests, sir, for when you get around to the new Star Trek series, which I'm told is now officially called Star Trek: Discovery. These are, of course, only my personal opinions, but since they're based on watching the entirety of TOS, TNG, and DS9 at least once as well as watching about half of VOY and, well, eleven episodes of ENT (I'll come back to that in a minute), not to mention a good portion of the old and new movies, I think I know whereof I speak when I talk about this franchise. So. My requests, in no particular order: )
rivendellrose: (Morgana)
So, as part of my attempt to recover from the woe and angst and whatnot documented in my last post, I returned to a guilty pleasure that I'd picked up some months back--watching select episodes of Star Trek: Enterprise. I didn't watch it back when it was actually a new thing, you see (or rather I watched about 15 minutes and decided that I could live without a series who started off by deciding that the Vulcan girl needed to get down to her underwear). Fortunately for me it improved later... sort of.

See, I say "selected episodes," and that is exactly what I mean: I only watch the episodes with Jeffrey Combs' character, Shran, in them.

Partly this is because I've adored Jeffrey Combs in many other sci-fi shows of roughly similar vintage, and partly it's because honest to god that character is the one thing that made me at all interested in watching. Years and years ago, back in college, I was in a bubble tea place that my friends and I frequented and they had the TV running, and an episode of Enterprise with him in it happened to be on and overlaid with Korean pop music. And it was the slashiest thing I'd ever seen. I was delighted to find out that his character was nearly as slashy without the Korean pop, and by informing me of this [personal profile] hearts_blood eventually convinced me that okay fine, I would watch an episode with him in it. And then another. And another. And then write some ridiculously bad fanfic bits just for our mutual consumption. And then watch even more, and write a bit more ridiculously bad fanfic, and so on. I never did get around to watching a single episode without Shran, and probably won't, because none of the other characters particularly interest me.

However that has led to a problem. I took a niiiice long gap in there, so it took a while for me to arrive at this point... but I've now watched all the episodes with Shran in them except for the very last episode, which I have on very good authority is unspeakably terrible. So, uh, there goes my trashy happy TV watching, I guess? And the one thing I've managed to rouse myself to write fic about in the last while?

Can't there just be more of it? Specifically more with Shran, mind - I still don't give a flying fuck about anybody else on the show... but given that it ended as a rather epic failure eleven years ago I have a pretty strong sense I won't be getting anything else out of it.

So, basically... shit.

(For the record, my mood has improved and I am not, like, on the verge of a breakdown or something anymore, particularly not because my trashy television of choice is done. But still! I am sulky.)
rivendellrose: (Delenn)
I think I understand now why some people, when they feel like their life is stuck, wind up having a kid. I always thought, oh, that's a terrible way to go about things, a baby isn't going to solve your problems! But it turns out, it's just really nice sometimes to look around and think, well, hell, just try and tell me I'm not doing something important right now, motherfucker - I'm growing a human being inside me.

It's kind of weirdly freeing. Like, I was sitting here watching cake-making videos on YouTube while knitting a baby cardigan, and I thought, "Wow, normally I might feel like I'm really wasting my evening and I should get up and do something productive. But... nope, not right now. I had a crummy, tired, ache-y day, and I just want to sit here and watch some woman make fancy cakes while I'm knitting, and that's okay, because I'm growing a person while I'm doing that."

Kind of neat, actually. Or at least oddly soothing for a person who always feels like they're not doing enough.

update

Feb. 29th, 2016 09:21 pm
rivendellrose: (Tea)
Had an appointment with the OB today, and generally things are going well. I unfortunately do not have the okay to do any kind of exercise for exercise's sake (including walking), so that sucks, but generally she seems to think I'm on target apart from the bleed still being a thing. The one thing I'm not on target on... is gaining weight. I've only gained about 6 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight, and the OB would prefer that I'd gained 9 or 10.

This is not a surprise. I've been watching the scale every time I go in, hoping it would creep up a little faster... but no luck.

We talked about a few simple things I can do to add some extra calories to my diet without feeling too full or eating junk food, things like nuts, avocados, replacing my current low-fat yogurt with full-fat, and adding in an Odwalla protein shake or other smoothie. That last one is especially helpful because even though I know they're full of calories (300-370 a bottle) they don't feel like I'm eating extra food, and they have basically no risk of making me feel full. And, as a bonus, they've actually got pretty good amounts of B vitamins and iron and stuff (the iron being particularly of concern since there's some risk of my becoming anemic since I've been bleeding semi-continually since December). So that's good.

Navel-gazing regarding gaining weight, and the entitled but still problematic weight issues that come from being small. )

So really there's two things going on here - the first being that I'm a little nervous about gaining weight even though I know I need to (and that supposedly breastfeeding will help it to come off after), but the second and probably bigger issue being that I'm afraid of losing my lifestyle. Even when I do walk now I have to be so careful to walk more slowly so I don't jostle and jar things more than I have to or be too active, I'm not even walking like myself. And that scares me immensely more than the thought of gaining ten pounds. More than anything I'm afraid of losing the way I've always walked miles without thinking about it, walking to the local parks and all that. I keep saying that I'll get back to it as soon as I can after the baby's born, and then back to the gym once I'm back to my usual self outside, but I'm genuinely nervous about not being able to recover as quickly as I hope.

And until then, there isn't a damned thing I can do except the exact opposite - sit here quietly, try not to get much activity at all, and eat an extra little bowl of cottage cheese so that hopefully I'll have gained some more weight at my next appointment.

whoops

Feb. 26th, 2016 05:54 pm
rivendellrose: (*snerk*)
Boy, it's a good thing I'm not any further along in my pregnancy than I am, since I found out at 5pm today that some tree roots have found their way into the pipes and messed up my building's water system, meaning no running water (including toilet flushing) for us until at least 7:30pm.

We're going out to dinner, and maybe to a movie after if we can find something that looks good to us.

Meanwhile, I've already had to mutter "don't flush, don't flush, don't flush," to myself after peeing, and then immediately turned on the faucet, got my hands into it, then remembered (duh, what was I just telling myself about the water system?), quickly turned off the water and dried my hands, then panicked and then ran to find hand sanitizer because, hell, I don't know, and I'm pregnant so every little possibility of contamination is instantly twenty times scarier than usual.

At least the electric tea kettle was still mostly full from earlier, so I was still able to pour myself a glass of non-suspect water to drink.

(Also my poor cat freaked out when the apartment manager knocked on the door because SOMEONE WAS KNOCKING ON THE DOOR, and more than half an hour later still had to sliiiiiiink cauuuuuutiously out of my office like he was afraid the (totally not-at-all) scary man might still reappear at any instant. Dude didn't even come in the door, and the cats have seen him several times since we moved here, but Theo has turned into a huge wimp in his old age and suddenly is afraid of pretty much everyone but The Boy and I.)
rivendellrose: (Scully)
Women who blithely talk about how much they enjoyed their pregnancy (which they usually went through 10+ years ago if they’re saying that, I notice) should just stfu. Not necessarily because I think they’re lying (spoilers: I totally think they’re either lying or the hormone-induced brain-wipe worked REALLY well on them), but because the rest of us who have kind of frankly miserable pregnancies with all kinds of problems and painful symptoms just don’t want to fucking hear it or even remember having heard it, okay? Just... just don’t.

If your pregnancy really was nine months of unadulterated bliss, good for you. Now screw off and leave the rest of us mere mortals to our suffering.

(Yup, still pregnant. Nope, not at all sure that'll continue as far as tomorrow, let alone 20 more weeks. Why so dismal? When you're already bleeding regularly and at risk for pre-term labor and everybody is like "call the hospital right away if you start getting cramps or more bleeding," and then you get debilitating pains that are almost certainly gas pains but who the hell knows the difference between those and cramps anyway, you have a tendency to panic slightly. Research indicates we are probably not really in crisis mode yet, just... in for another uncomfortable evening of the late 2nd trimester.)

Also, on a related note, gas pains can go jump off a fucking bridge into a volcano.

NOTE: This post is not actually intended as an attack against anybody, and no, I don't actually think anybody should stfu about their pregnancy. Not reeeeally, anyway. I'm just feeling really shitty right now, okay?
rivendellrose: (letters)
This year might actually be the first year (at least the first in a long time...) that I try to do NaNoWriMo and don't succeed. The short version is that I've got some positive-but-distracting home stuff going on, I'm taking on new responsibilities at work and taking a leadership class there as well, which will require homework once I've got through the first session this Wednesday, and today, my big day for catching up, I felt pretty sick and didn't get nearly as much done as I needed to so far. I was hoping to get 5,000+ words today (5,000 to catch up to par for today, and then additional words to make up for the fact that once again I'll probably be low on words during the work week). So far I've only done 2,870. Which is pretty good given the afore-mentioned sick feelings, but not nearly as much as I need. So... blah.

And I've got an executive board meeting for the local editors guild on Tuesday night, so not much will be getting written then. At least I have my hour long lunches at work back this week? Maybe I can get something in then, if I'm quick about it.
rivendellrose: (Tea)
I really, really, really cannot be getting sick right now. Now is, quite literally, the worst possible time for me to get sick. Not even joking, actually quite serious, can't get sick.

Please. Please no sick. Please nothing going wrong. Not saying with what because Superstition and also Tempting Fate. But just.... seriously. Nothing going wrong, please.

Now, I really have to go make myself a giant pot of lemon ginger tea and hope this sore throat goes away, along with whatever else it brought with it. Because no.
rivendellrose: (*snerk*)
I've been doing a lot more coding at my job the last several months, because the auditing thing that was my primary job function for the last four of my eight years at the company finally got automated and I guess they decided I'd better actually do the thing that my job title says for a while.

Anyway, I mention this here not because I've become so brilliant at web dev (spoilers: I haven't), but because, strangely, I think of LJ/DW most days while I'm working. Because one of the things I often need to do is use CSS alter the appearance of some aspect of our standard platform (since our flexible website platform is pretty much anything but flexible), and... often times that means eyeballing something and thinking "50 pixels to the right? Will 50px do it? And... 100px down?"

And always, always, when I'm trying to do this, the unit of measurement that my brain works in... is LJ/DW icons.

(Yeah, I know, there's tools to measure that shit. I'm lazy, and installing anything on my stupid work computer requires a HelpDesk ticket. Plus, I already have to trial-and-error just about everything, so...)

We now return you to our regularly scheduled hour of staring at NaNoWriMo thinking "I'm sure I had an idea what I was going to write about on October 31..."
rivendellrose: (letters)
Trying out this Dreamwidth thing again, because Tumblr is annoying the crap out of me. I mean, seriously. Remember back when everybody was like "Oh, LJ staff are so awful, let's all LEAVE." And then they went to Tumblr for some reason?

Yeah.

Anyway, since this place is actually functional and has a working comment system that no one is thinking of removing, and you can actually have conversations without exploding everyone's dash/f-list into a nightmare of incoherent replies, I figured I'd try posting here again. Maybe this time it'll actually stick.

I still miss my kitty mood icons, though. The bats are cute, but they're not as cute as the kitty icons I had on LJ.
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I haven't decided for sure yet, but there is a possibility that I may be letting my paid account lapse over on LJ. This might mean that I become even more absent than I have been in the recent past. My hope is that this will not be the case... which is why I have actually made crossposting work with my Dreamwidth, finally, so that I can post from there, at the very least, and still keep my LJ going to some extent. It's been my home on the internet for oh dear god I don't even know way too long, and while Tumblr and all that are fun, they're just not the same. So. ♥

If you're over on LJ and you want to find me on DW (or, for that matter, Tumblr) I've got the same name there that I have everywhere else, and I'm always happy to see a familiar face!
rivendellrose: (letters)
Two questions on the subject of cross-posting and imports to and from LJ:

1. When I post something with cross-posting enabled, DW tells me that it will send a request to LJ. Presumably this means I have to somehow allow the post on LJ. How do I do that?

2. Why, for the love of all that's good and holy, do all my comments that were imported from LJ show an icon that, yes, I definitely remember having once upon a blue moon about a million years ago, but which I have long since replaced with other icons, and which is no longer uploaded on either DW or LJ? I can understand (quite easily) that it reverts all my main post icons to my default on DW, because I don't have the same keywords for my icons on both systems, but... why this random icon that doesn't exist anymore? (And apologies to anyone who thinks I've gone utterly mad and am still using an icon of 20-years-ago Sarah Mclachlan... I swear, I'm not... at least not intentionally...)

This post not cross-posted, for obvious reasons.
rivendellrose: (letters)
We're trying another experiment with cross-posting from Dreamwidth. I will always love LJ, but I've been getting twitchy about not having any way to back up my entries, and now that I'm up to date on my import to Dreamwidth (with a little manual work to catch up all the way), I'm going to try to keep up from now on. Which means either cross-posting from Dreamwidth, or copying entries by hand, which, frankly, is a bit of a pain.

I have no intention of giving up my LJ, just for the record. I love it, and I've had it for almost ten years. I am just regarding this as the best way to get a back-up going.

Short version: This entry is basically just a test to see if cross-posting works. ♥
rivendellrose: (Default)
Drive-by links:

Fascinating piece on sex ed from the NYTimes (apologies if it shows a login screen - it works for me, but I can never tell when I link out to their stuff what it's going to do for other people)

And, also from NYTimes, We now have software to rate how drastically photos are retouched in magazines and so on. Seriously, check this out, it's a real eye-opener if you (like most people) have ever looked at a magazine cover and instantly felt your sense of personal attractiveness go down something like twelve points. "Why can't my skin be as perfect as hers? Why can't my stomach be that flat?" Well, because hers isn't either. Check out this gallery of photos before and after photoshopping to see some really fascinating examples of what's going on.

MoveOn.org has a petition to stop the current internet censorship bill that's being debated in Congress right now. Definitely worth putting your name to, for the American folks here.

Lastly, go check out all the glorious stuff that's being auctioned off to benefit Terri Windling and her family over at [profile] magick4terri. There's some seriously cool stuff over there, and a ton of it, so be sure to page through the previous entries. It's a great way to help out one of the grand dames of fantasy, and get some of your holiday shopping done to boot! Or, hell, just fabulously fun browsing to go through and coo over all the stuff wonderful people have donated to help out. ;) There's also a Facebook page, and please do spread the word!
rivendellrose: (Morgana)
Just finished watching the latest Merlin... Spoilers for Merlin, through episode 4.09 under the cut! )

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