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Since I had to dig it up for a Tumblr post (which you can see here if you like), here's a link to Greg Aronowitz's blog post in which he tells the, er, fascinating story of how Delenn's makeup in the B5 pilot got to where we saw it (and from where), and how Mira Furlan made sure we got the Delenn we know and love.


Choice quote:

"Mira suddenly shot up and said, "HIM!?! Did you say make HIM more human?” For the first time, Mira discovered that Delenn was supposed to be a man. I guess all of the descriptions in the script stated “frail alien” and “wise mystic”, but never really called out a sex. The gender change was something JMS was going to keep secret till the series needed the curve, but I guess it was kept TOO secret!"

PS: Why is the "preview" function on Dreamwidth totally broken? I hate not being able to check my HTML when I'm doing something other than just text and normal links...
rivendellrose: (Default)
Comment with one of my fandoms, and I'll tell you:

the character I least understand
interactions I enjoyed the most
the character who scares me the most
the character who is mostly like me
hottest looks character
one thing I dislike about my fave character
one thing I like about my hated character
a quote or scene that haunts me
a death that left me indifferent
a character I wish died but didn’t
my ship that never sailed
rivendellrose: (letters)
Ganked from [personal profile] nostalgia: A writing questions meme!

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?
2: What scene did you first put down?
3: What's your favorite line of narration?
4: What's your favorite line of dialogue?
5: What part was hardest to write?
6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics?
7: Where did the title come from?
8: Did any real people or events inspire any part of it?
9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic?
10: Why did you choose this pairing for this particular story?
11: What do you like best about this fic?
12: What do you like least about this fic?
13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn't listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?
14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?
15: What did you learn from writing this fic?

My fic is all here, and I would love a few questions to distract me from the frustrating formatting issues in this edit I'm working on!


Apr. 5th, 2017 08:53 pm
rivendellrose: (Hands and Arms)
I have updated my icons to remove the old fannish ones I wasn't using anymore, and include some new ones that I think I will get more use out of. Nothing fannish yet, though I might trade a few old ones out for that later. We'll see.

In other news, Theoden (my cat) seems to be recovering nicely from his surgery... mostly evidenced by the fact that he jumps up on my desk to try to find food that I might have left there, and starts chewing on stuff and crying and being annoying about 2 hours before he's supposed to get dinner. So that's... good? For a certain definition of "good." XD

I'm also trying to get caught up to where The Boy is at in S-Town, which is tough because he listens while he's on his commute, and I don't have a commute anymore. But it's a very enjoyable and mind-bending story, and good listening for while I knit in the evening.
rivendellrose: (letters)
I think I need to make some new icons. A lot of my existing ones are nice, but they're from ages ago and (in a few cases, at least) fandoms I'm not really connected to anymore. I love my Daleks, but I haven't been in Doctor Who fandom for years. I'll have to think about what my new icons should be and let myself work on them as a reward for finishing work in the next few weeks.

Also need to figure out the custom mood theme thing, and maaaaaaaybe play with my layout. I've never done custom layouts, but while I like the stars the black background on this one is maybe a bit much for me. We'll see.

...Oh, and remove my automatic cross-posting so it doesn't throw errors when I stop paying attention to it.
rivendellrose: (Tea)
Dear Fancy-Pants Neighbor,

Under most circumstances it would really annoy me that you had your landscaper tearing out your still-blossoming spring bulbs yesterday because that's a serious waste and it makes me sad, but since I was able to snag a bunch of the ones he'd left laying on the sidewalk and hustle them home to an empty planter on my balcony and a day later it looks like I'll probably have a number of cute little bluebells for a little while and possibly some hyacinths (which hadn't even opened yet, you monster), I guess some degree of thanks are in order.

Your neighbor who hates watching plants die

Dear Cat,

I know you hate your e-collar (aka Cone of Shame). I know it makes you miserable and sad, and you don't understand why you can't lick your leg. The thing is, you had surgery. Remember that day when we took you to the scary place and then when you came home you were really wobbly and drunk and sore? Yeah. They had to cut a big tumor out of your back leg. You can't lick your leg because we'd like you to not tear out the sutures and reopen the incision. If you manage not to tear or otherwise damage anything before then, you should be able to have the sutures removed this Saturday, and then we can all go back to life as usual.

Until then, please try not to knock the guard-wall off your litter box and then forget where your fuzzy butt is supposed to be in relation to the box, get litter on your collar, or, worse, get poo on your collar. None of us have any fun when you do these things. None of us.

Your Humans


Apr. 3rd, 2017 09:19 pm
rivendellrose: (bleeding heart)
I've deleted my LJ account. The new ToS bullshit was bothering me, the giant ads drove me nuts when I logged in, and it was time to admit that just having had an account for 14 years wasn't actually enough to make it worth keeping when the site was clearly going under.

So yeah. My fic is all (or very nearly all, at least) up on Ao3, I'll clean up the links in the sticky post for them later. I might even figure out how to upload my Neko-Chao kitty mood theme here someday, now. It never felt quite right here without them.
rivendellrose: (Ravenclaw)
Lucius Malfoy has now joined the new Star Trek cast that already included Abe Sapien from the Hellboy movies, Sasha from The Walking Dead, Yu Shu Lien from Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, and Marc Cohen from RENT.

Somewhere, my college self doesn't know whether to laugh or cry. My current self is just about as confused.
rivendellrose: (*snerk*)
Just watched the first episode of The Expanse.

So, friends, tell me: does this get better? Because my was that pilot episode kind of poorly-written and generally uninteresting.

2017 goals

Jan. 2nd, 2017 08:59 pm
rivendellrose: (dance)
My goals for 2017, in no particular order:

- Be more positive and grateful for what I have in my life, even when I'm sad for some reason (or no reason).
- Go to the gym (or do commensurate physical activity like hike, etc.) 3 times a week.
- Write at least 750 words a day.
- Write on original work 4 days a week. (3 days are allowed to be fanfic. Or more if I also write at least 750 words on one of the original works.)
- Hit my freelance income goal for the year (it's low, but it's my first full year full-time).
- Post to my blog at least once a month.
- Spend less time looking at social media (Tumblr, Twitter, FB) and more time doing useful things like practicing guitar, working on my calligraphy, drawing, writing, etc.
- Practice the guitar at least 5 days a week.
- Write down all the books I read in the year.

That last one is important to me because I get almost all my books out of the library, now, especially fiction... and I already have a tendency to forget most of what I read a few weeks after I've finished it. I think this is a tendency honed as an English major in college--it was only beneficial for me to remember the millions of books that I read for English, history, anthropology, classics, and assorted other similar classes for 10 weeks at the absolute most, and I read so damned many that it benefited me if my brain just dumped the info after being tested on them. ...Or it could just be that I'm a quick but not a very deep reader. Pick your poison. I can read a lot of books... but if you ask me the last ten books I read I'll probably get through three or four tops before going "Uhh.... and a bunch of other stuff?"

Then again, if you ask me what the last three movies I saw were I'll probably only get to two before kind of blanking, so maybe I just have the memory of a goldfish. Who knows. I'm not especially concerned either way. It is what it is, and it means I can reread books (and rewatch movies) quite happily if I like them.
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Stolen from [personal profile] selenak, the End of Year Fannish Meme!

1. Your main fandom of the year? Old Star Trek: DS9 and ENT. I had a huge personal loss and massive life-change this year, as well as some resulting depression, and the combination sent me scrambling for comfort in the form of both the familiar and long-beloved (DS9) and the familiar-but-slightly-new (ENT).

2. Your favourite film watched this year? I'm terrible at picking only one favorite, so instead I'll list a few: Arrival, Moana, and Hail, Caesar! come to the top of my mind.

3. Your favourite book read this year? Again, terrible at picking only one, but I developed a passion for Georgette Heyer this year, and probably my favorite of her books is either Arabella or Frederica.

4. Your favourite TV show of the year? I'm going to go with "favorite new to this year," so that would be the short-lived but marvelously underrated BrainDead. Seriously, check this out if you missed it, it's hilarious, has a marvelous cast, and is perfectly delightful.

5. Your favourite online fandom community of the year? Meh, I have honestly not been that terribly involved in online fandom this year, apart from individually with a few friends. Mostly I love that there are still fans of the old stuff floating around putting up occasional new things.

6. Your best new fandom discovery of the year? Uh... The Force Awakens taught me that sometimes I really like Star Wars?

7. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year? Uhhhhhhhhhh... does the ENT finale count? Because wow, that was a piece of shit. I was prepared, and I was still horrified.

8. Your TV boyfriend of the year? 2016 shall go down in my fandom history as the year that I coped with my messed up life by falling head over heels for Commander Shran, and Jeffrey Combs in general.

9. Your TV girlfriend of the year? Hmm, let's say Mary Elizabeth Winstead, because I loved her character in BrainDead and was thrilled to see her doing something better than Scott Pilgrim.

10. Your biggest squee moment of the year? Seeing "A Midsummer Night's Dream" at the Globe Theater in London, and then watching the same production several months later when its final performance was streamed by the BBC. That was fucking fantastic.

11. The most missed of your old fandoms? The most missed would probably be Babylon 5, which I've been somewhat restraining myself from (just the thought of the DVD menus is enough to keep me from pulling them out, even though I'd love to rewatch some of my favorite episodes, and I'm a little afraid of falling face-first back into all that madness) and whose online camaraderie I really missed from the old days of LJ.

12. The fandom you haven’t tried yet, but want to? Hmm, dunno. We've been trying Leverage, but it's not really clicking yet? I know, that doesn't totally count. Uhhhh... I might watch Rogue One once it's on Apple TV? I'm afraid it'll be too Saving Private Ryan for me.

13. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year? American Gods and Star Trek: Discovery. I suspect the former will surpass my usual levels of accepted violence/gore and the latter will disappoint me in some way, but I am still ridiculously excited for both and will do my best to stick them out regardless. Also looking forward to the as-yet-untitled (as far as I know) spin-off from The Good Wife, because damn but I miss that show. Oh, and Mass Effect: Andromeda. Man am I excited for that game.
rivendellrose: (Scully)
So, after seeing yet another of those "Hey, we're tired of Tumblr fandom's shit" and a lot of people commenting with basically "I would love to go back to Dreamwidth/LJ but it doesn't seem to be active," I decided, well, hell, if that many of us feel that way maybe we should just flipping try to post here again. Because hell yeah, I'm sick of a medium that doesn't allow the kind of conversation that made me interested in fandom to begin with.

So anyway, this is me, putting myself out there to say hey, I'm still here! I would totally still be here all the time if other folks were still here, too!

As far as fandom stuff goes, I'm mostly just waiting with bated breath for Star Trek: Discovery. Will it almost certainly disappoint me? Yeah, now that Bryan Fuller isn't leading it anymore I'm resigned to the fact that after the first few episodes the amazingness may taper off and I might not actually like it, and also it is going to be a giant return to the usual Klingon obsession, which is sad. But freaking Doug Jones is playing an alien regular, Michelle Yeoh is playing a Starfleet captain, and Sonequa Martin-Green is the lead character. I can't miss the possibilities represented there, even if they wind up not being quite everything I'm hoping for.

Also, Moana and Arrival were both fabulous movies. And [personal profile] hearts_blood is currently doing a fantastic job of dragging me back into our old Minbari headcanon universe. She also got me the Crimson Peak artbook for Christmas and it is flipping gorgeous.

How's everybody else doing out there?
rivendellrose: (To be or...)
Dear Santa Bryan Fuller:

I've been a very good girl and I have been a loyal viewer of your shows (we can talk later about my reasons for only having actually seen a few episodes of Hannibal, but suffice to say I was a devoted fan of the show anyway, and did everything I could to support the social media campaigns and whatnot to save it), and I can't wait for American Gods, but I have a few requests, sir, for when you get around to the new Star Trek series, which I'm told is now officially called Star Trek: Discovery. These are, of course, only my personal opinions, but since they're based on watching the entirety of TOS, TNG, and DS9 at least once as well as watching about half of VOY and, well, eleven episodes of ENT (I'll come back to that in a minute), not to mention a good portion of the old and new movies, I think I know whereof I speak when I talk about this franchise. So. My requests, in no particular order: )
rivendellrose: (Morgana)
So, as part of my attempt to recover from the woe and angst and whatnot documented in my last post, I returned to a guilty pleasure that I'd picked up some months back--watching select episodes of Star Trek: Enterprise. I didn't watch it back when it was actually a new thing, you see (or rather I watched about 15 minutes and decided that I could live without a series who started off by deciding that the Vulcan girl needed to get down to her underwear). Fortunately for me it improved later... sort of.

See, I say "selected episodes," and that is exactly what I mean: I only watch the episodes with Jeffrey Combs' character, Shran, in them.

Partly this is because I've adored Jeffrey Combs in many other sci-fi shows of roughly similar vintage, and partly it's because honest to god that character is the one thing that made me at all interested in watching. Years and years ago, back in college, I was in a bubble tea place that my friends and I frequented and they had the TV running, and an episode of Enterprise with him in it happened to be on and overlaid with Korean pop music. And it was the slashiest thing I'd ever seen. I was delighted to find out that his character was nearly as slashy without the Korean pop, and by informing me of this [personal profile] hearts_blood eventually convinced me that okay fine, I would watch an episode with him in it. And then another. And another. And then write some ridiculously bad fanfic bits just for our mutual consumption. And then watch even more, and write a bit more ridiculously bad fanfic, and so on. I never did get around to watching a single episode without Shran, and probably won't, because none of the other characters particularly interest me.

However that has led to a problem. I took a niiiice long gap in there, so it took a while for me to arrive at this point... but I've now watched all the episodes with Shran in them except for the very last episode, which I have on very good authority is unspeakably terrible. So, uh, there goes my trashy happy TV watching, I guess? And the one thing I've managed to rouse myself to write fic about in the last while?

Can't there just be more of it? Specifically more with Shran, mind - I still don't give a flying fuck about anybody else on the show... but given that it ended as a rather epic failure eleven years ago I have a pretty strong sense I won't be getting anything else out of it.

So, basically... shit.

(For the record, my mood has improved and I am not, like, on the verge of a breakdown or something anymore, particularly not because my trashy television of choice is done. But still! I am sulky.)
rivendellrose: (Delenn)
I think I understand now why some people, when they feel like their life is stuck, wind up having a kid. I always thought, oh, that's a terrible way to go about things, a baby isn't going to solve your problems! But it turns out, it's just really nice sometimes to look around and think, well, hell, just try and tell me I'm not doing something important right now, motherfucker - I'm growing a human being inside me.

It's kind of weirdly freeing. Like, I was sitting here watching cake-making videos on YouTube while knitting a baby cardigan, and I thought, "Wow, normally I might feel like I'm really wasting my evening and I should get up and do something productive. But... nope, not right now. I had a crummy, tired, ache-y day, and I just want to sit here and watch some woman make fancy cakes while I'm knitting, and that's okay, because I'm growing a person while I'm doing that."

Kind of neat, actually. Or at least oddly soothing for a person who always feels like they're not doing enough.


Feb. 29th, 2016 09:21 pm
rivendellrose: (Tea)
Had an appointment with the OB today, and generally things are going well. I unfortunately do not have the okay to do any kind of exercise for exercise's sake (including walking), so that sucks, but generally she seems to think I'm on target apart from the bleed still being a thing. The one thing I'm not on target on... is gaining weight. I've only gained about 6 lbs from my pre-pregnancy weight, and the OB would prefer that I'd gained 9 or 10.

This is not a surprise. I've been watching the scale every time I go in, hoping it would creep up a little faster... but no luck.

We talked about a few simple things I can do to add some extra calories to my diet without feeling too full or eating junk food, things like nuts, avocados, replacing my current low-fat yogurt with full-fat, and adding in an Odwalla protein shake or other smoothie. That last one is especially helpful because even though I know they're full of calories (300-370 a bottle) they don't feel like I'm eating extra food, and they have basically no risk of making me feel full. And, as a bonus, they've actually got pretty good amounts of B vitamins and iron and stuff (the iron being particularly of concern since there's some risk of my becoming anemic since I've been bleeding semi-continually since December). So that's good.

Navel-gazing regarding gaining weight, and the entitled but still problematic weight issues that come from being small. )

So really there's two things going on here - the first being that I'm a little nervous about gaining weight even though I know I need to (and that supposedly breastfeeding will help it to come off after), but the second and probably bigger issue being that I'm afraid of losing my lifestyle. Even when I do walk now I have to be so careful to walk more slowly so I don't jostle and jar things more than I have to or be too active, I'm not even walking like myself. And that scares me immensely more than the thought of gaining ten pounds. More than anything I'm afraid of losing the way I've always walked miles without thinking about it, walking to the local parks and all that. I keep saying that I'll get back to it as soon as I can after the baby's born, and then back to the gym once I'm back to my usual self outside, but I'm genuinely nervous about not being able to recover as quickly as I hope.

And until then, there isn't a damned thing I can do except the exact opposite - sit here quietly, try not to get much activity at all, and eat an extra little bowl of cottage cheese so that hopefully I'll have gained some more weight at my next appointment.


Feb. 26th, 2016 05:54 pm
rivendellrose: (*snerk*)
Boy, it's a good thing I'm not any further along in my pregnancy than I am, since I found out at 5pm today that some tree roots have found their way into the pipes and messed up my building's water system, meaning no running water (including toilet flushing) for us until at least 7:30pm.

We're going out to dinner, and maybe to a movie after if we can find something that looks good to us.

Meanwhile, I've already had to mutter "don't flush, don't flush, don't flush," to myself after peeing, and then immediately turned on the faucet, got my hands into it, then remembered (duh, what was I just telling myself about the water system?), quickly turned off the water and dried my hands, then panicked and then ran to find hand sanitizer because, hell, I don't know, and I'm pregnant so every little possibility of contamination is instantly twenty times scarier than usual.

At least the electric tea kettle was still mostly full from earlier, so I was still able to pour myself a glass of non-suspect water to drink.

(Also my poor cat freaked out when the apartment manager knocked on the door because SOMEONE WAS KNOCKING ON THE DOOR, and more than half an hour later still had to sliiiiiiink cauuuuuutiously out of my office like he was afraid the (totally not-at-all) scary man might still reappear at any instant. Dude didn't even come in the door, and the cats have seen him several times since we moved here, but Theo has turned into a huge wimp in his old age and suddenly is afraid of pretty much everyone but The Boy and I.)
rivendellrose: (Scully)
Women who blithely talk about how much they enjoyed their pregnancy (which they usually went through 10+ years ago if they’re saying that, I notice) should just stfu. Not necessarily because I think they’re lying (spoilers: I totally think they’re either lying or the hormone-induced brain-wipe worked REALLY well on them), but because the rest of us who have kind of frankly miserable pregnancies with all kinds of problems and painful symptoms just don’t want to fucking hear it or even remember having heard it, okay? Just... just don’t.

If your pregnancy really was nine months of unadulterated bliss, good for you. Now screw off and leave the rest of us mere mortals to our suffering.

(Yup, still pregnant. Nope, not at all sure that'll continue as far as tomorrow, let alone 20 more weeks. Why so dismal? When you're already bleeding regularly and at risk for pre-term labor and everybody is like "call the hospital right away if you start getting cramps or more bleeding," and then you get debilitating pains that are almost certainly gas pains but who the hell knows the difference between those and cramps anyway, you have a tendency to panic slightly. Research indicates we are probably not really in crisis mode yet, just... in for another uncomfortable evening of the late 2nd trimester.)

Also, on a related note, gas pains can go jump off a fucking bridge into a volcano.

NOTE: This post is not actually intended as an attack against anybody, and no, I don't actually think anybody should stfu about their pregnancy. Not reeeeally, anyway. I'm just feeling really shitty right now, okay?


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