broken by the smallest things

[rivendellrose]

I hate nights like this. I hope work goes nice and easily tonight. I don't think I can handle much more stress.

I can't tell if I'm just bonkers tonight, or if I really made a horrible, horrible decision today. I hate that feeling. This is why I'm crap with decisions - because so often I feel like complete shit after I finally make them.

ETA: Obviously, I'm over-emotional tonight, and wangsting. Let me emphasize - this is not a huge crisis. It just feels like it, tonight. I'm having one of those evenings where every little thing sets me off in tears, and I exacerbated it by finishing reading The Lovely Bones for my seminar. Beautiful book, but not a good one for a mood when you're already three hankies away from a sob-fest. Yesterday was massively emotional, I didn't get much sleep, and then today I forced myself into deciding something that I'm regretting, now. Reason and I are not the best of friends, sometimes.

Hopefully, now that I'm at work everything will just sort of calm down. Distraction is good. Pinning every little emotion in my hormonally-fucked-up body on a cat is not.

Comments

[zhapper.livejournal.com]

Awww, poor Jen! Get some sleep.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I will, as soon as I get off work. Most likely, that's the worst thing that's hitting me right now.

[zhapper.livejournal.com]

Yeah, sleep deprivation affects people more than they'd like to admit. I know dealing with stuff is harder when I haven't had my 7 or so hours. If you ever feel like complaining to somebody, I'm always online. :)

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

At this point, I think I'll be getting online purely to let my mom know I'm home from work, then crashing. But in the future I'll definitely keep that in mind. ;)

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

You need sleep. Above all, regardless of your decision, you need a good night's sleep. It's been a long weekend, you didn't sleep very well last night, and it was another semi-long day today. Get a good night's sleep, and see how you feel in the morning.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I know. That's the primary thing, that and the hormonal stuff. I'm always a little weepy this time of the month, this is just worse than usual. *Yawns* Just a bit longer at work, in any case.

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

I know, I know. Here. I wrote you a little something to try and help cheer you up. Now I'm going to go crash and see if I can get some sleep. Take it easy, and I'll talk to you tomorrow.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

*Squee* I just read it, it's so cute! *Hugs*

Go get sleep, and feel better, I know you had a long weekend, too. Hopefully we'll both be feeling more like our usual selves tomorrow. :)

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

poor Sweety! like everyone else said, get a good nights sleep, and re-examine your decision tomorrow. More than likely, it's not too late to change it, if that's what you decide you want to do.
Love you lots, Feel better, OK?

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Yup. *hugs* If I still feel like it was a bad decision, I can get up there tomorrow and deal with it, or at least call them and see about dealing with it. Love you, too.

[tiffangelwings.livejournal.com]

*would wrap you up in a big blanket and do your work for you if she could*

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

*Hugs* Thanks, hun. It's just been a long weekend.

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

I you decide you do want to consider Jupiter, let either Fey or I know, we can bring some more stuff up, and get it taken care of.