assorted ponderings

[rivendellrose]

NaNo's probably taking a backseat to getting my anthropology take-home midterm going, today, but hopefully I'll be back on track soon, with the weekend to catch me up. Current word-count is 3,649, which is... well, respectable, I suppose.

I registered for Winter quarter today... Statistics, and a pair of sort of random 300-level Anth classes. I really wanted to take my 200-level requirement this quarter, but it conflicts with Stat, which is just silly since every Anth major has to take both and there's an obviously limited number of Anth classes with numbers between 200 and 210, and only three offered this quarter. Ah well. I want to get Stat out of the way so I don't have to deal with it in my last quarter.

I was thinking last night - I'm really happy that I came back for this last year. I may still be entirely clueless about what I'm doing after graduation, but I'm happy to be on the Senior Gift Council, and also pleased that I'm getting to know my mentor/advisor better, and having more chance to make friends in my classes. I seem to get on better with Anth majors than I ever did with other English students - maybe they're just a friendlier bunch, maybe I'm more confident, it's hard to say. In whatever case, I'm proud of the progress I've made in the last four years. My only real feeling of lack - and boy do I feel stupid saying this - is that I'm still a bit lonely. I have the best friends anyone could ever want, but I am the sort of person who always feels a bit unsatisfied if I'm not in a relationship, much as I wish I didn't have that feeling. There's a sense in which I'm leery of falling, and I definitely have some problems with figuring out my feelings or knowing how to act on them, but there it is. I'm still working on figuring it all out - I get the sense sometimes there's a lot of weird issues twisted up in this, and I'm still trying to figure out how to untangle them. It bugs me, anyway.

And I really should be writing my midterm, not figuratively contemplating my own navel.

Comments

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

Why would you feel stupid saying that you're a bit lonely? Everyone, if they're honest with themselves is a bit lonely sometimes. Even with the best friends in the world, even when you're in a relationship, you will still feel lonely occasionally. My opinion anyway. I'm so glad that you're feeling good about your decision to stay in school this year.
So you got the classes for next quarter at the times that you needed to fit in with each other AND work, eh? YAY, go you!

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I feel stupid saying it because it's not really that big a deal, and I shouldn't feel like my life is missing something if I'm not in a relationship. But I do. So... whatever.

Well, not really - work fits around school, wherever it goes. So that much is just kind of a "whatever happens happens" sort of thing.

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

so you won't be able to have the same schedule? You won't have to go back to the nights will you?

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I doubt I'll be going back to that. I'll probably just take some afternoon slots, since my schedule doesn't go very late. Fine by me. *Shrugs* The schedule this quarter was random good luck since I didn't have any morning classes. Next quarter it'll probably just switch - classes then work, instead of vice versa.

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

HeeHeeHee, I love Henry. "Well, when you're spending government money, why not go for Baroque." HeeHee!

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

*Laughs* He's such a great character. :D