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[rivendellrose]

I just found out that if I'd wanted comments on my paper, I would have turned it in yesterday. Monday. Not today. So now I'm just struggling to get the damned thing turned in by Thursday because, fucking hell, it's a hell of a lot harder to write 15 pages than I'd remembered. Especially when I'm just so tired I want to scream and forget about all of this.

And I don't want to go to work. Primarily because I'm scared of my boss's reaction to my muck-up on Sunday, and also because tonight is going to be hell thanks to the baby-sitting program that they call CLUE. And I have a final at 8:30am tomorrow that I will most likely have no time to study for, and be functioning on most likely less than six hours of sleep for, as well.

I just want this quarter to be over. NOW.

I don't know how the hell I'm going to get my Christmas shopping done. I don't know how we're going to get the house in decent shape to have a guest, especially a day earlier than we'd expected which is not the fault of anyone, but just an extra thing to worry about. I don't know how I'm going to survive living alone in this house with the dog and the cat while everyone else is gone. I don't know when the hell I'm sending out the rest of my Christmas cards, or the letter my grandma wanted, or do any of the other umpteen-billion things I'm now feeling like I have to do before Christmas.

I'm entirely too tired for this shit. I apologize for all the nasty, ill-tempered, bitchy posts lately. And it's time to get ready for work.

Comments

[diea.livejournal.com]

Stress! It's evil precious! I'm sorry life is so shitty right now. Wish there was something I could do. I think we all want this semester/quarter to be over. *hugs*

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

It is definitely evil, yes! It'll all be better once the quarter is over, that's what I'm clinging to. *hugs back*

And your icon is so very appropriate.

[diea.livejournal.com]

Isn't it great? macjinx made it for me.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

It's very cute!

[lennaofmidearth.livejournal.com]

Hey, don't even worry about me. I could care less what shape the house is in. I know what it's like to be so stressed, believe me. And there's only so much anyone can do in a short amount of time. School and work are stressful enough. *hugs*

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I know, it's just one of those things where every time someone comes over I start looking at especially my room (thank god it's downstairs not on the main floor) and start going "holy crap, we've lived here how long and I'm still not organized or really fully unpacked??!"

It will all be okay once I get my paper done. I just have to keep saying that. *hugs*

[shadawyn.livejournal.com]

I'll be alone, too. We'll have to make the effort to keep one another company! The girls leave from Thursday until the 30th. That's two whole weeks!

*hugs* Hope the rest of the week moves upwards!

[zodikins.livejournal.com]

I'll be up here, too. We three should get together.

I have a fondue pot.......

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Woohoo! We definitely should. And you still need to come by to the house, so that'll have to happen at some point!

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Gah, at least mine are only leaving the 20th and 21st or so! We will keep each other company - I've got work, but in the evenings I'll be boooored and watching lots of movies and stuff to keep the big empty house from freaking me out. And trying to work out a way to keep the dog and cat both happy at night... which should be exciting. And my mom offered to stay up here with me if I get freaked out, which I'm probably going to take advantage of. I'm such a weenie. ;)

*hugs* Thank you - it certainly should, once things start getting finished.

[capnexposition.livejournal.com]

Y'know, I don't know why you stress so much over Thomas getting pissed at you. Honest mistakes he forgives, provided you understand what you did wrong and know how to avoid doing it again. If you don't see what you did wrong, it really makes him happy to have people ask how to do it right. What gets him pissed off is people making mistakes they should know not to make. A lack of desire to correct the situation also cheeses him off. But by and large, if you show a healthy desire to improve, he will never feel upset with you for longer than a few minutes, as near as I can tell.

Of course, I have only had him disgruntled with me once that I know of, and that was when I first got hired. Since then, we have come to appreciate each other, or so I like to think...BTW, who did he transfer out of the office?

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I know, I just get freaked out because it's such stupid stuff that I miss. It's the kind of stuff I know the people who are more used to the system (or just better with the tech stuff) don't mess up on, and that's what trips me up.

Chamarke was transferred back to Kane. That's part of why I'm kind of 'eep' about little stuff at the moment - it's kind of a 'oo, that could be me' sort of thing.