D: I lose, so very hardcore

[rivendellrose]

I - am an idiot.

A grade A, world-fucking-class moron.

So, nekokoban and I are coming home from the ADP showing, and the 44 takes forever to show up (literally, like half an hour! It was a full fifteen minutes late!). We're talking about the new video game she's gonna start tomorrow, and this guy comes up to ask if we're waiting for the 44, too. We all chat, he's very nice, he's very cute and when Terra mentions the cat, he shows us a picture of his cat, Nala, on his cellphone. (Yes, he has a picture of his cat on his cellphone. Is that not adorable?)

He's totally flirting - I'm not sure with which of us, but there is a definite flirting-vibe. We're chatting, we're telling stories, he gets very awkward when telling one story and puts a definite emphasis on the "ex" part of "my ex-girlfriend"... And then it's time for us to get off. And my stupid fucking brain does not inform me "Okay, twit, now is the time to ask him for his FREAKING PHONE NUMBER." No, no no - like a fool, I shake his hand, tell him how nice it was to meet him.... and get OFF THE FUCKING BUS. ^$#@^@#^$$@$@#%#$^%$^%@#%@#$#@

WHY??? Why do I have to be such a fucking social moron??!

For the first... like... minute, this was funny. Then I started realizing exactly how fucking pathetic it was that I couldn't even realize to ask for his number, and now it's just plain sad. Especially when Erin pointed out that he totally mentioned that he was meeting friends at a bar in Fremont as an attempt to invite us along. ARGH! D: D: D:

My brain: "Gee, I wish he'd ask for my number!" SO FUCKING ASK HIM FOR HIS, YOU IDIOT!!!

....I'm drinking wine. And I think Erin and I are gonna watch A Knight's Tale. But I am soooooooooooooooooooooo pissed off at myself right now.

So cute! So. Very. Cute! And he was flirting with us! But you know what? He's from fucking BELLEVUE! So the likelihood of seeing him again? FUCKING NIL!!! But my brain? Has to go into some kind of stupid fucking "cute guy flirting with me, brain goes DIE" thing where I can't realize that this is the fucking 21st century and I am expected to get off my fucking ass and make a move on occasion!!!!!

Comments

Off subject, but...

[shadawyn.livejournal.com]

... so you guys won't be at Yunnie's?

Re: Off subject, but...

[nekokoban]

No, unfortunately. I, at least, am planning on heading to bed in half an hour or so; I've been tired all day, for no good reason, so I plan on sleeping early to try and rejuvenate. |D

Re: Off subject, but...

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

No, I've been really really fried all week, and I'm sorry I didn't respond to your comment earlier. I'm surprised I'm even awake now, just 'cause I watched that movie with Erin before heading downstairs. *Hugs* We'll get together soon, yeah?

[ellid.livejournal.com]

In which case...if he's meeting friends at this bar once, he's likely to do so again. Try hitting the place tomorrow night or sometime next week, just in case....

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

*Nods* I'm gonna try the same spot next weekend, in hopes he goes out with the same friends again. I don't know exactly which bar he was going to (and there's a lot in Fremont...) or I probably would've tried to track him down tonight. If I hadn't been so damned tired (and it so rainy), I might've tried anyway. I felt just that stupid, when I realized.

On Topic

[shadawyn.livejournal.com]

Now that I'm past the "ruh? Did this happen tonight or last week?" I can actually respond to the post.

I have a tendency to wait for the guy to make the first move, too. Maybe it's the age of liberated women, but I still like it when they ask. (Though I should include that I did ask Mike out, though at the same time, he asked me out FIRST. I just never got the email.)

Maybe you'll see him again :D Maybe it wasn't meant to be, and that's why you didn't ask.

Don't beat yourself up too much about something you can't change. Just be ready to take the initiative next time :D Or not, if you are like me. LoL

Re: On Topic

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping - and I'm trying to stick to the "if it doesn't happen it's not meant to be" thing, but there's that old "the fates help those who help themselves" thing, too. I suck at being proactive, and it's constantly biting me in the ass.

At the very least, I've learned a lesson. Ask, or you might regret it later.

[shoeless-girl.livejournal.com]

Awww sweetie. You're not an idiot. Yes, it is sometimes good to make the first move, but don't beat yourself up :( ellid has good advice - go and check out the pub sometime :D

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I have a feeling I may be spending a good amount of time cruising downtown Fremont next weekend, especially if I can find a friend to go with me. Or at least hanging at the same bus-stop for a bit around the same time, to see if he shows. ;)

[coralia13.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sorry! :( That sucks! Maybe this'll be like one of those movie situations, where you run into him again at the grocery store, or something. Or you could just ride the buses around Bellevue in your spare time.

It's a bummer, but don't be too hard on yourself. We all kick ourselves for mismanaging our love lives, and chances are, you didn't just screw things up forever with your one and only soul mate. There'll be more cute, sweet ones (that aren't Simon), and this time, you'll be ready to program your cell phone at the first sign of flirtation.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Maybe! I keep getting that image, you know - can't help thinking me being this astronomically stupid this time around is some kind of sign or other. Not like it's all that unusual, but still. ;)

Heh - yeah, it's a good lesson to learn. Maybe just the kick in the pants that I need to be ready next time. Either way... way past my bed-time, right now. Hopefully I'll get a second chance, with him or someone fate's decided is better for me.

[narsilion.livejournal.com]

Well, If you both bus it all the time, a relationship with someone in Bellevue may not work out that well. Not that it's REALLY far,it just would be really inconvenient, in that oh, it's 2:00 in the morning, and I don't want to take the bus home, but I have to work/school tomorrow, at XX:XX. Not very romantic, but true. Maybe that's why it wasn't meant to be. I always prefer to be asked first, then after the first time, I don't have a problem asking at all. That's just me.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

True, true - I'm not even sure how often he's out in this area. And it's not so much "ohmigod I missed the love of my life!" as sort of a general "dude... I'm an idiot, and not taking that kind of opportunity is exactly why I have a hard time meeting guys."

I do prefer to be asked first, but hey - beggars can't be choosers, and there's something to be said for being the one doing the choosing, right? ;)

[ladysonnet.livejournal.com]

Being angry isn't so necessary in this case. You're hardly the first person to do it. There's an entire section of newspapers dedicated to this sort of thing. You've heard of it, it's called 'I saw U'.

"We were waiting for the 44, you showed me your cat on your cell phone. Wish I had that cell's number. Meet me at a bar in Freemont?"

There. Easy as pie. :)

B

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Good thought! I'll have to see about submitting one of those!