a brief return before the 'end' of HP

[rivendellrose]

I was supposed to be finishing That Damned Fic tonight, but then nekokoban showed me this Malfoy-centric HP fanart gallery, and I kind of... got distracted. And remembered how much I adore Narcissa. And realized that I only have a few more months to write whatever I think of her before canon kills her stomps all over whatever ideas I have.

For the most part, I'm settled and prepared for the 7th book. I know my favorite pairing (Snape/Lupin) won't ever happen, so that's not an issue. I've brought my ongoing S/L fic up to date as far as HBP, and I'm resigned to one more 'chapter' so that I can twist whatever ending the final book brings them to into something that I can cope with. I've also resigned myself to certain canon potentials that I regard as nearly impossible to avoid... Ron/Hermione, for instance, which I hate but also am certain will, inevitably, turn out to be a big deal.

Thanks to the damned RP, though, I'm realizing that I'm not quite ready to give up on Cissa just yet. She's the one character that I really feel like I owned - there was so little canonical knowledge of her at the time I started playing that I had a lot of freedom to create her as I wanted. Unlike Hermione and the others, she really felt like my own creation in a lot of ways. I got to take her in a lot of really fun directions, and really play up not only her good sides, but also her bad, nasty, ignorant side. The part that made her a complete twit, or that led her to say one thing one minute, and then something completely different when she was caught out doing something that Bella or someone else didn't like. Her complete lack of ability to cope with the realities of modern life. Her willingness to throw herself to the ground for the benefit of her family, abasing herself in every way imaginable... and then turn around and yell at her husband for putting her in that position. I'm going to miss her, damn it. And I want a few more chances to play around in her head before I see her off to whatever (probably disastrous) end JKR has planned.

Like I didn't have enough writing projects to work on already. :P At the very least, though, I might have to do a sort of... 'best moments' type thing, from the games. Just for my own benefit, since I'm always afraid they're going to disappear at some point or something, and I want to be able to find them for nostalgia's sake. And I've been meaning to write a little "canon be damned, this is how I think the characters should all end up" kind of thing. Which... I really ought to do before the book plays merry hell with my mental images.

Not tonight. It's too damned late, right now.

Comments

[bluerose16.livejournal.com]

MAKANI.

I adore her art. Passionately. She is an AMAZING artist, I encourage you to look at the not-just-Malfoy sections of her website as well. She's really got a gift.

Yay for writing and productivity and canon-be-damned.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

She's wonderful, isn't she? I can't get over how expressive her faces are. I've looked through almost all of her fan-page there, but I haven't found a link to her non-fandom work (which I'm assuming she has...), so if you have any links I'd be thrilled to see them!

Canon-be-damned, indeed. That seems to be the theme for all the fan writing I've been doing lately.

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

If you really miss Cissa and want to have fun with her pre-last-book-canon, you can always app her at landels_damned. It's not like she wouldn't have friends there. Er...of a sort....

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

I keep thinking about that - about applying for Cissa, or for Susan, or for someone else completely random. I really do miss RPing, and I'm waaaaaay too shy to join a game where I don't know anybody. But with my schedule as it is, I'm afraid that I'd never have time to post or be involved, or even to keep up with everything else going on, and I know how frustrating that is for other players. :/

So I'm still thinking about it. I'm just kind of nervous.

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

Susan is actually already taken, she and Marcus were apped for this round. Lyta is no longer alone! I've still got my fingers crossed for someone to app Zack, though. Because I'm horribly selfish like that. :D

Well, I'm pretty sure you know more people there than just me. We've got 97 members, and I'm almost positive you're familiar with some of them. :D And we do have other Harry Potter characters running about. I'd check out the list, if I were you.

The thing with Damned is that you don't have to keep up with everything, just the things your character is actually involved in. I have to keep up with everything, but that's because that's one of my main modly duties - monitering threads to make sure everyone is behaving. Which they are, actually, it's wonderful. In the entire time I've been running the game, I've only had to give a light warning to one person. Tis a beautiful thing. And since it's not in real time, there isn't that pressure to be constantly posting. I didn't post at all yesterday or today, and it's no big deal. And I'm a main mod.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

That's good! I felt bad for poor Lyta, being the only one from the B5-verse.

Yeah, with that many people I'm sure there's somebody else I know, at least - I may not be that active in fandom, but I do still manage to know or know of a few people here and there. ;) I'll take a peek and see if anything grabs me strongly enough that I just have to go for it. It sounds like a really neat game. It's the damnedest thing trying to keep my writing and everything else going with working full-time, though. Drives me crazy. I've got all this stuff I want to do, and the time for it just isn't there. :P

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

She's actually been doing pretty well, even though she's been alone from her canon. She's got strong alliances going with Renji from Bleach and Fox from Metal Gear Solid, and a semi-alliance with Envy. She's basically blackmailing him into helping her, since she's not exactly skilled in hand to hand combat. But it wille nice to have Susan and Marcus, especially since they're both pre-Season 5 and therefor blissfully unaware of The Time Lyta Went Batshit Crazy!

Yeah, there definitely is. And hey, who knows, we get enough familiar HP characters, maybe I'll give in to the prodding and resurrect one of mine. :D Oh man, if you did pick up Cissa.... *images Cissa and Lust interacting, especially depending on how they're introduced to one another...*

I think it's a damn neat game, but I did pour my blood, sweat and tears into the plot of it. It's a labor of love, seriously.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's an especially good fact for her. ;) Can't imagine Susan'd be too happy if she had been there to see it. And Marcus. Awww. ♥

Oh dear gods. The image of Lust and Cissa existing anywhere near each other is just... all kinds of terrifying and wonderful. Highly dependent on how they meet, as you said, but no matter what I imagine it'd be an... interesting situation.

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

Oh yes. And it saves Susan and Marcus from any major hostility, too. :D

Lust does need more female friends... I'm just wondering if Cissa would run into any of the people who are under the impression Lust's name is actually 'Bellatrix'. Because that? Would be hilarious.

[rivendellrose.livejournal.com]

Oh, poor Ciss. She hates her sister, but in a situation like that she'd go nuts trying to find her, figuring that if anybody could figure a way out it'd be Bella... and then finding a woman who completely isn't her sister? That'd totally break her poor little brain. *Hugs her*

[theladyfeylene.livejournal.com]

Especially since Lust has just...stopped correcting people. :D

See, look, all the more reason to join!