rivendellrose | so.... tired....

I'm totally exhausted, damn it. I should never have taken this 7:30am job, and it *really* doesn't help that it started after last weekend, with all that staying up late. And then everything else that's happened this week.

I really thought I'd be happy about all of this, but I feel so completely miserable. Nothing is ever what you expect, I guess. I just hope things settle down and start making sense again soon.

On a related note, I hate making decisions. REALLY hate it. I've thought I've come to a solution about five times in the last few days, and I'm never satisfied for more than an hour or so. If even that. And I want to get this figured out soon, damn it. I guess... I know what I want, I just don't know if it's a good idea.

This is making no sense to anybody but about three people, I know. But once I've started it's so hard to stop ranting.

I had a good cry about the whole thing last night, which left me feeling a bit better, but you can only do that so much before it stops helping. And it's silly anyway - there's nothing in this to be crying about, really. I'm probably just too damned tired. Big surprise there.

The RPs are really quiet lately... it's really strange. At least in MM I know it's partly my fault - I'll get something up there today. At least I get to go home and have a few days of rest, now... I feel like I really need it.

Happy Thanksgiving, everybody!